Sunday, April 15, 2007

Uncertain days

Between them
the past was a ceaseless
white on white

A clean page
pen poised above
fingers trembling with tension
to write a history
but the ink
unable
to spill to paper

She receded into the shadow worlds
wervyn and were- creatures abound
the moving shapes
leaving burning images
on her filigreed curtains

She
closed doors
wove protective shells
layered crystal and calcium
building carefully around her
till she could not see without

and none could come within.


And he
had no recourse
to make contact

His curse
was to be incorporate

a ghost in the machinery
seen vaguely as a backdrop
for the completion of destinies

He made up the numbers
during daylight hours

but secretly at night
when the lights were extinguished
he would press glowing spectral fingers
to the smooth surface of the road outside his house

The tar
melting beneath touch
allowing phrases and thoughts
to sear into the coarse much travelled pathways

He would leave whole stories
of men without mouths
who could not speak desperation

Of men without faces
who could not frown

Of a women
encased within a seashell

He wrote tales
of prophecies foretold

of a seeking for wholeness

from the one person who could offer it


who was forever

saying no

And by morning
the winding script
swirled and wavered across
the blackened thread


Telling his story to no one
but the tyres
as they ran upon him
and smeared him dark again








Friday, April 13, 2007

Prices

I have done what you asked


I lit the votives


murmured hymns of abasement

prostrated myself

at the alter

Allowed you to heap
humiliations
on my bowed neck

Burn indignities
into my hot flesh

I submitted to all of this
as you fluttered
around the light
brushing against the heated bulb
with thin translucent wings

never in danger

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Untitled

There’s a woman
on a swing
at 7.30am
trying for free
missing it completely
looking self conscious
and lost and
becoming the little girl
she wishes to be
in all the wrong ways
all the shy self depreciation
uncertainty in each shuddering
upward arc
to hang
exposed to the sky
then fall again
and again




I am driving past
the past
pedal flat to the ground
making the blur my company
talking to the smear of greenery
and concrete
colourless haze
in companionable familiarity
hoping for response

accepting sullen

My hands have melted to the wheel
becoming another shade of
chrome and steel
spinning left and right

Steering the course
a pilot at the helm of the Cutty Sark
cleaving waves with the salt spray
stinging cheeks and freezing fingers
to the weathered timbers
eyes clenched in grim determination
losing sight of elation

that joyful sensation I coveted

My car is another destination
a place travelling with me
somewhere to be go
a staff in the hands of a mage
wielding power
with the spark of ignition
replacing witch fire burning

I am taking me now

the howl of the engine
a raging wind released
a ravenous beast unleashed
upon the herd
slaying ideologies
and hope with the same
slavering rending fang indifference

I have no time left
because I have left it on
the kitchen bench
a post-it-note
stuck to a used plate
explaining
that I'm still not complaining
I just cannot face my face
any longer

The rear vision mirror
pushed to an angle
so I cannot see behind or within

And will you come?

Sister of the starlit sea
I know you wish to join me
in all my frail complexities

in all my blaze of glory
end of story finalities

I will look for you

on the yellow pink gentle palette
painted on the sunset I am heading for




Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Gifts



She told herself

the price was too high


And wrapped her soul
in tin foil and sticking tape
wound round and around
till she could never be found

She told herself

a gift is freely given

And sealed herself
in molten sand
the glass reflecting
her hand against the surface
a smear of uncertainty

She told herself

the choice was hers


and it was.








One at a time

I have drawn another day

to my breast

savoured its air

inhaled its scent

run naked through its morning warmth

lain rested in its noon heat

wandered thoughtful across its afternoon shadows

and lit a fire

in its pressing dark

Monday, April 09, 2007

An exploration of any given period

I will wear my shame
with pride


The purity of self loathing
in the shimmer
of sable

A cloak of incantations

Within the hood
each rune
sears sins
into my skull

No hiding
or
denying

Each bright blot upon
the chapters of life
clearly inked
and synched to
short falls
lies
averted lines of
thought
sliding
sidewinder through eyes

Let the day
expose
pathetic excuses
and hastily erected
defences
around
whining cajoling
disclaimers

I will suck it in
suck it down

Awaken to aching doubt
and fall asleep to the lullaby
of why

Monday, April 02, 2007

Disparity *Language Warning *

It isn’t poetic

or pretty

The curve of your sex
angles away
around corners of conversation
into complexities of sleep deprivation
and time poverties
weary
thread bare insistence


And yes
it
aches

bone deep
interrupting sleep patterns
scattering thoughts to random

A lurid regimes totality

each day
a collection
of tiny self denials

There is no understanding
of imperative for you

It remains
an abstract
inconclusive
and elusive
ignored and deplored as
an inability
to control

And when will we fuck
do you think?

I do not want romance
and soft imprecations tonight
I am not capable of dimming the lights
and massaging my way into your
good graces

The energies arc and flare
setting skin into flame enhanced
dancing nerve
self serving
seductions

I covet
the taste of you

Want is a waste
a cock
turned to stone

<>The disparity of desire
personified in
the press of rigidity
against averted flesh

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Body Language

Your skin is fable

Tales
undulating
curving beneath
my questing eyes

Stories
of troll and fairy fire


The circle
in which
I dance widdershins
a wild cavort
of reckless behaviours

Legends of Homer
an arrow shot through aligned rings
a journey travelled
looping over islands
winding through
witches hidden
caverns

I read you without cessation
devouring words
scavenging meanings
woven within context

Seeking completion
in the never ending fantasy
you are to me



Thursday, March 22, 2007

Foot note to Wildflower paths

Far be it from me to put the general public in danger

This was posted as a reply to Wildflower paths on a website I post at

It should come with a warning though: Foxglove is Digitalis, a powerful heart stimulant, and can be very dangerous. Even handling the leaves can cause and elevated pulse and shortness of breath.

I am almost postive I was not promoting the concept of smearing fox glove onto your hands and wearing it like a glove.. well maybe I was, BUT NOT FOR REAL LADIES AND GENTLEMEN
that would be silly wouldnt it, because , it might kill you *rolls eyes*


I also suggest you dont cornflower your skin
or put eyesbright into your eyes
and hopefully, no one will step into our foot prints after
we have moved on, lest you get forgetmenot on your feet
and EXPLODE

*sighs*

Never too civilised

We ignore the warning signs
the flashing neon
Freon gas noxious cloud of undercurrent
sweeping us away

You
with all your choices
neatly arrayed on the buffet
beneath the china plates
behind the photo's
black whites of us
looking wind swept and interesting

Light and dark I said
and smiled although it was a cold pleasure
with no real heat to make the lips curl correctly

Light and shade you corrected
because you have not given up

will never give up

And yes
there is a howling
barely heard beneath the gentle strains
of our tune
a grating screech
bringing bloodsong
and wilderness

And my wilding
is sides of suggestion
another perspective
no one wants
and everyone turns slightly away
from

You covet although and other
interpretations

the opportunity to correct the politics
too enticing to pass up


Still hold onto us with gritted teeth

even when I bite your hand
the hand
that feeds


Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Distances.


What do we know of distances?


Between us rests
the fullness of time
voices of history
echoing into flesh

resonating
the past

vibrating till the shrill
wind of tomorrow
gales and blusters
scattering carefully assembled
memories

Our declarations
made
in the safety of seclusion

I can see our questing


Tibetan prayers
hanging on the elm
thin paper pleadings
spin and flutter
to be ripped asunder
sacrificed
to the simplicities
of natural order

Our skin
turns to rivers
flowing in reversal
the eddy and whirl
seeping from one to the other
till I do not know which way to go

Drawn into the current
left to flow sluggish
and discoloured












Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Wildflower Paths

I have returned

Carved a path through
honeysuckle days
to allay our disquiet

We will reacquaint ourselves
with peaks and valleys

Hands tucked
in foxglove snug

We stare into
then through
watching eyebright
shining incandescence
leaving shimmer trails
of sight

You crayon my skin
cornflower shades of yesterday

Listen to the sound of us
with cats ear clarity
the way we
twitch this way
and that

Forget-me-nots
will spring
from our
receding footprints

To leave
wildflower paths
for others to follow

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Suggestions of metaphor *revision*

I had you once
caught in the moment
between sunrise

and when my fucked up eyes could
open
allowing the morning to
stream into grey scale spaces
graining the surface of optic nerve

Hell is a sparrow
tumbling from the branch.

Feathers
can not break the fall.

Wings will not bring saviours
hymns and harps strumming

the eternal host is not coming
to lend
a hand
to land upon.

Bones are brittle
hollowed by the men with pipes
and illustrations of
the past
winding into their eyes
drawing stories of the sun and sea
upon wrinkled cheeks.

When they finally speak
the words
become carved wooden craft
let loose upon cobalt waters
adrift
and shifting through dimensions
whispering the tales of lovers
and Gods together
how mortal and immortal
can create worlds and sky scapes
with sex
and lawless passions
scrawled upon

the cheeks of old men with pipes.

I had you once

Encased in amber
a millennium passing
in the press of a kiss.

Tomorrow is a chick
mouth agape
impatient
for succour
as we strive to reach the nest

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Bad days

run in packs

Lopping easy strides
through the light foliage
of your life

Dogging heels
following scent trails

Spreading out in loose formation
arcing around
to surround

And when
you are exhausted
crazed with fear and pain
and gasping
on trembling legs

They take you down

with barely a sound

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Clearly Obscured

I had you

caught in the moment

between sunrise

and when my fucked up eyes could

open to allow the morning in

once again.

Hell is a sparrow

tumbling from the branch

feathers

can not break the fall

Wings will not bring saviours

hymns and harps

the eternal host

a hand to land upon

Bones are brittle

hollowed by the men with pipes

and illustrations of

the past

winding into their eyes

I had you

encased in amber

a millennium passing

in the press of a kiss

Tomorrow is a chick

mouth agape

impatient

for succour

as we strived to reach the nest

Monday, February 26, 2007

Untitled

There is no one here now
the dream
the thought
the sea scented impressions
I have left on your flesh
are
drying and fading


My life is a husk,
the dead shell of being
where once the sweet juice
would rouge my lips with existence.

Empty is not the end
it does not contain the finality
of completion
just the echo and yearning
for what was

There is no one here now
long gone
I have taken my words
my soul calling
sky falling
and tucked them into
the sun

Given
something for everyone
but me

Monday, February 19, 2007

Untitled

The strains of piano
drawn over weeping

Your fingers
running
the dance of song
thin and delicate
they press
to caress the keys
into acquiescence

Each note hovers
a quavering question

You draw the limp day into sound
raise the fronds of what was once
and should now be

And
I will unwind in forgetting
a fallen leaf
soaring on the song
swirling random design

A fae breeze to lift
and release

seasons caught in the sun on your hair
reasons left far behind
in the arguments we almost gave voice
but then
defused with the snuffing crush of our fingers

Linking into skin and eyes
sinking beneath resistances
to seek
solace in harmonies

Sing with me
the chorus of caress
the song of flesh

You have tapped the last note
to float towards me
in the suggestion of

yes




Wednesday, February 14, 2007



These will be my days of stone


Unmake me
and recreate me
in the shape of a Menhir

Let me stand
alone for ten thousand years
so that I may learn love





Tales to tell

And it came to pass the earth could not take the abuse any longer, her soil
was dry and dying, her flora, wilted and disappearing, her fauna, missing in action.

For fifty years, she toiled, to shape an emissary, one who would embody all the attributes
of the world, her magic was still strong, although each indignity man perpetrated upon her
diminished her a little more each day, she had gathered magic over the course of a billion
years and she wielded it now, in blazing trails of crimson fire, she gave the Scout as she called him, arms hewn from the sun, in surging tendrils of aquamarine, she gave him legs which danced like the tides, in alabaster delicately applied touches, she gave him the skin of the sky, white of cloud, white of eternity, white of no-more-tomorrows.

When she was done, she lay down naked beside him, and kiss-hushed her stories into the shallow curve of his ear, she told him all of her history, the time of fire, when volcanoes ruled and she spat fire and flame and lava miles into the sky, the glorious burning of youth raging through her, she set fire to the air and burst apart, bubbled and grew, receded and cooled.

She told him of the time of the reptiles, how they ravaged her with their endless hungers, and how they died in a single week of destruction when the sky sent a rock hurtling into her, hurting her deeply, slaying her for a time.

She told him of the rise of man, a slowly growing menace, who simply forgot who she was, and how much he needed her.

And when she was done, the Scout rose and slowly ascended to the surface.









Pausing Continued

There’s a stone in my mind
speaking of prophecies

patient with my rage
calm beneath the surge of negations

I want and want and want

inviolate
impotent
distilling the pure alcohol
of self rejection

my stone
turns wine into water

And when I'm speaking in
the twisting tongues of what-if

my stone
wedges in my throat

Silence
in the weight of a rock
no air escapes
no words escape

and I pause