I hear
only what I want to hear
And I still hear you
not this nothing
this burst of still
which surges across me
I hear existence continued
the
in and ex of breath
I hear blood
and the strumming of your heart song
I hear you
not this senseless space created by dark
matter
where no light will shine
I hear
laughter and light
and the way you could make me smile
on tough days
I will keep listening
beyond the dirt piled high upon you
press my face to the soil
and wait for words
for the
in and ex of breath
for sound
your sound
the uniqueness of your essence
as it washes over me
Take your silence away
I have no use for quiet
fill me with song and sound
and your days and your past
and you and you and you.
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I spent yesterday writing about the time I spent looking after mum before she died so this really fitted with that. yes I know that ...
Death is a day
we cannot see coming
but we always have it marked
on the calendar just in case
*sighs very deeply*
I am so sad
I have submitted to it
and now it is everything
oh sweetie *hugs*
I wish I knew something to say that would help, but I really don't have any wise words.
Even time doesn't seem to help much, except that I find as time goes by I remember more of the good things and the bad things slip away. I'm grateful for that at least. But the missing never seems to go away.
it's not fair that people go away like that. I take a long time to trust people and let them in and letting them go again is not something I do easily.
Thankyou Moon,
I am pretty good with the concept of death and passing usually.
Its just, this guy,
he had a total of five months from the day they told him to the day he died... thats not a long time.
At least he got to say goodbye to his family and friends mostly I guess
If I had rung a day or so earlier, I might have caught him before he was too crook to respond.
might have beens
are fairly useless I know....
I put it off fuck it, I was going to ring on the Monday, but I couldnt face the sound of his cracking voice......
And so I don't get to say anything for eternity.
well maybe think of it this way ... if you didn't say goodbye then he never really left and the two of you are still friends.
Thanks kid *hugs*, appreciate you being there for me today
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